Strike the match, strike it now//we’re a perfect match, perfect somehow

Strike the match, strike the match now

We’re a perfect match, perfect somehow

We were meant for one another

Come a little closer

Flame you came to me

Fire meet gasoline

-“Fire meet Gasoline” by Sia

How about a sappy post now? A sappy post about pairings in film/TV/literature whose stories and development strike me as compelling. Even if not much development has happened yet (*cough* Kylo *cough* Ren), I still look forward to seeing how their relationship progresses. But most of them have come to fruition and I would call these my “one true pairings”. Yes, it’s possible to have multiple “OTPs”. You must know that in real life I come up with ship names for my friends and their significant others. It is a great source of entertainment, especially to tease my friend/family member. 😉

And some of these couples may surprise you. You may think, “Geez, this girl goes for the dark romances!”

True, true. Most of the time I am drawn to the stories that promise the most development, change, and redemption. Give me a broken human who finds light in another, who is guided back to the right path and strives to care for and love this special person. That special person changes them, alters them forever, and the old way of life becomes like a ball and chain. I like to consider myself an optimist. And yes, maybe a tad idealistic. But I love to see the person in the light (which to me represents God’s goodness and mercy) lift the one crumbling in darkness out of despair and into hope. Is this cheesy?

For some reason I find it extremely inspiring, heart-wrenching, and dear. These are the romances I adore, the ones I hope will happen, the pairings I see so much promise in as a part of the larger picture of the story.

And ironically, a good many of the pairings below contain an NF personality type-which is, one of my own kind, since I’m an INFP, in myers-brigg typology. I will share the characters’ types as well.

Note: Yes, I know I’ve done this before, but this is the list that contains the most gripping sorts of relationships. Also, expect this to be a semi-long post.

The Phantom (Erik) [INFJ] and Christine [INFP]

The Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux

I read Susan Kay’s novel, Phantom several years ago, and it was probably among my favorites. It was probably melodramatic, in retrospect, but I believe it captured the Gothic elements of the actual story. It truly is a Gothic story, pretty legendary in musical history. The Phantom of the Opera is a dark fairytale, and it follows the trope of “Death and the Maiden.” Christine wears white, a sign of her innocence, and the Phantom is the “Angel of Music” who teaches her how to become a legendary singer. But this Angel is a jealous teacher. And that is the setup for the rest of the story, which entails Christine slowly discovering the warped ideals and damaged nature of her Angel of Music. Both Leroux’s original novel and Susan Kay’s book reveal the layers of pain and hurt and lack of healthy development of Erik, the Phantom. While some would argue that is going out to justify his actions, I believe it is showing a man who since childhood has seen the worst side of humanity. Christine is his idealized project, his very own piece of humanity that is untouched by the cruelty he has always known. She shows him that she has the strength to live selflessly, and it seems like her name is meant to hint at her Christ-like grace and compassion. She chooses to sacrifice herself so Raoul, the man who is trying to court her, can be freed from Erik’s lair. He realizes how truly selfless she is and surrenders her, however much pain it costs him. Yes, he is a damaged soul seeking to grab at whatever comfort he desires. But he learns. He surrenders. He lays down his own need ultimately for Christine.

Kylo Ren (INFP) and Rey (ISTP)

Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Probably one of my favorites. I honestly didn’t even realize the potential for a relationship between these two at first. During the first viewing with my family, my cousin and sister started cracking up because they saw Kylo Ren as extremely ugly. And then I saw a piece of Reylo fan art on the internet a couple weeks later and the realization slammed into me. This could really be a fantastic thing, Kylo Ren the prodigal son of Leia and Han. I never got much into Star Wars until these two. The dynamic and chemistry between Rey and Kylo Ren is definitely there. This story has the potential for a Beauty and the Beast twist that would lead to the redemption of Kylo Ren. I believe the force bond that is probably developing between them will become evident in the next two films. And I sincerely hope they aren’t cousins. But it looks like that theory is null. Here’s to hoping Rey is a Kenobi.   😉

Daryl Dixon (ISTP) and Beth Greene (INFP)

The Walking Dead (AMC)

Well. This show has succeeded in rattling me to the core. It’s absolutely tragic and shows us how humans can survive despite all odds. It seems to be a much more intense version of LOST, plus the walking dead. But these two. These two have a unique sort of relationship. While it was never officially called a romantic relationship, what existed between Beth and Daryl was pure, subtle, and emotionally shaking. They are “two sides of the same coin”–she reminds him there is good in the world still and he teaches her to face reality, to toughen up in order to make it in the world. And that is such a beautiful thing between two people.

Sherlock Holmes (INTP) and Molly Hooper (INFJ)

Sherlock (BBC)

Well, I’m pretty sure I started with the hardcore adoration of “shipping” when I watched Sherlock. Now, this is my opinion, but I detected a sweet connection between socially dysfunctional Sherlock and sensitive, caring Molly. They have something, there’s these shared looks and Sherlock shooting off rude comments about Molly’s various boyfriends (JEALOUS?). He always apologizes to her when he says something hurtful or insensitive, and he kisses her so tenderly on the cheek, and once on the lips! I really look forward to seeing where the series takes their relationship. I honestly think it has strong potential for being an example of somebody (Molly) bringing out the best in someone else (Sherlock). And he gives her blunt, but quite insightful, commentary on her choices in relationships and he values her hard work.

Jack Shepherd (ESTJ) and Kate Austen (ISFP)

LOST (ABC)

When I saw this show a few years ago I found it to be rich in storytelling and in how it developed each individual character and their relationships with each other. But best of all, I found a new OTP. Jack and Kate. They complete each other. They are both haunted by their pasts, they both seek to restart on the Island. And in each other they discover a friend, confidante, and eventually love. Complicated, tough, and unbreakable love. Theirs is a roller-coaster relationship. But in the end, they understand that they need one another. They survive together, and they go on together to face whatever J.J. Abrams throws at them. 🙂

Back in

Whenever I sit down to write a new blog post (usually at night when *magical* surges of inspiration happen) . . . I sort of freeze up (those magical waves of creativity obviously don’t help much). Maybe it’s the subconscious awareness that so many people could potentially see what I write, and then I get all introverted, even though I can’t see those people, and I huddle into my shell. I guess this will have to change, especially since next year I will be submitting papers to my professors, which essentially means breaking down my barriers of keep-everything-to-myself!

Some exciting little things that rouse my geekier side are currently underway:

Sims 4 comes out next month. Right after school begins. Dang.

It is “Lewis and Clark month” on Tumblr, which brings joy to me daily when I see people post about some of my favorite historical guys.

SCHOOL BEGINS. Yes, I AM excited. SO SO EXCITED. Why? SENIOR YEAR IS WHY.

And then there are the BIG things.

College begins next year!

Final SAT test this October

University of Dallas Odyssey Day happens in October as well

Jaw surgery. no. no. no . . .

Preparing transcript and reading list for college

Applying and getting accepted to my favorite college

FINALLY entering some writing contests.

If I manage to get into University of Dallas, I would hopefully get the opportunity to spend a semester of my sophomore year in Rome! Rome! As someone obsessed with ancient history, anything classical, the “dead” languages (Greek, Latin, Hebrew, etc.), getting to visit Roma Aeterna is the ultimate desire on my lifetime bucket list. It would make me so happy. The campus in Rome looks exquisite, breath-taking, with this haunting sense that I would be existing where the men and women of old lived and breathed. There would be St. Peter’s Cathedral, there would be visits to Greece, to Venice, Assissi, Florence–to quote from the UD website, “all the wonders of the Renaissance.” And in addition to Italy and Greece, I will be able to travel to other countries in Europe (The UK, of course, and France, AND Germany . . .) Now I must share some Pinterest pictures of this potential destination in my future! XD

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L’Opera Garnier
Greece
Greece
The Tyrol
The Tyrol

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Florence
Florence
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Paris
Venice
Venice
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the Forum Romanum
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coast of Italy
Library in Prague
Library in Prague
The Alps
The Alps
Verona
Verona

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Rome
Rome
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Notre Dame
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Mt. Vesuvius
Rome
Rome

 

 

Going up

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On Saturday my sister and I leave for Washington state to visit our best-friends-since-childhood, and I can hardly wait. This means no writing for a week (no typing on the computer, that is, and therefore more procrastination. o.O

I love, ABSOLUTELY, love, the Northwest. It is such a beautiful part of the country. Last time I went in 2012, we visited Fort Clatsop, Mt. Rainier, Mt. St. Helens, Bainbridge Island. We went salmon fishing with our friends’ grandfather on the Puget Sound. The memories stay with me and delight me, two years later, as I prepare for a second trip north. I’m a Texan, fyi, so it is awesome when I can step out of my state and check out other states. Like last year, I took a trip to Virginia to visit PHC for a teen Strategic Intelligence Camp. And visited Monticello. (Oh my goodness, I barely contained my excitement. Visiting the home of one of my favorite Founding Fathers? I think yes!)Trip to VA 2013 055

We also visited Michie’s Tavern, but I’m digressing. We’re discussing the Northwest here. Not VA. 😛

I must say, I don’t know if I’ll sleep much tomorrow night. We’ll be waking up early, and then off on a four hour flight. Here are some pictures from my last trip, with captions! If any of ya’ll have been to the Northwest, or live there, what do ya’ll like best about it?

From my seat on the plane. Yes, we got stuck by the wing on my FIRST plane ride. Dang. #no-view
From my seat on the plane. Yes, we got stuck by the wing on my FIRST plane ride. Dang. #no-view
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Fish at Pike’s Place! For the record, I don’t really like seafood, except for Salmon, shrimp, and talapia. ONLY if it is seasoned in the right way. 😛
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We went to the original Starbucks at Pike’s Place. This is Megan, one of our Twinsie BFFs (who we’re going to visit all week!!!)
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Fish throwing at Pike’s Place!
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The market at Pike’s Place! So amazing! We got to try chocolate pasta, and bubble tea.
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The gum wall. (bleh) I’m the one holding the jean jacket! 😀
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Another pretty Starbucks in Seattle
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We tried Ivars, and I ate fried fish for the first time. The sea gulls swooped everywhere, which was kinda unnerving. Ha.
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Moar seagulls
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And we took the ferry to Bainbridge Island! I loved the feel of the boat swaying beneath my feet.
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Puget Sound and Sailboats!
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And duh, I totally met Seaman in a flower garden by the water gates in Seattle. I arranged it with Meriwether Lewis, yeah. (I wish!) But I could not believe my luck, at meeting a Newfoundland in the Northwest. Seaman! I hugged him (the owners gave me permission to pet their beautiful dog)
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A photoshoot on the railroad tracks got the four of us teen girls some publicity. A group from Texas stared at us for a while, they wanted to learn the ways of crazy Washingtonians who take photos on railroad tracks. (BUT we’re Texans! lol) See, the creeper in the background has a TEXAS shirt on!
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In a phone booth, yep
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Being from the flatlands of TX, I couldn’t get over the TREES. THEY ARE REAL TREES, NOT LITTLE SCRAWNY BUSHES THAT ARE HERE IN DFW. WUT
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I literally could not wrap my mind around Mount Rainier’s hugeness. Look at those buildings down at the bottom! That was the mountain museum, hotel, and tourist center. Even looking at this photo takes my breath away. The Northwest really has magnificence.
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I snapped a shot of this because it says CHINOOK. Like, the Chinook Indians, who Lewis and Clark stayed with during the winter of 1805-06. So of course I had to take a picture of a sign saying Chinook in this region.
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Fort Clatsop! When I beheld this sign I might have hyperventilated a bit. Because if you didn’t know, I sort of really love Lewis and Clark
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At Fort Clatsop, the national park, we went on a river walk and at lunch in a picnic area with a replica Lewis and Clark canoe. We took a land-ride.
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A blurry pic of me at Lewis’s desk inside the captain’s quarters at Fort Clatsop. Wearing a Chinook hat! *grin*
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In the tourist center museum at Fort Clatsop! Lewis and Clark!!!! 

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So after Fort Clatsop (which constituted an amazing, awesome time with my older sister’s mother-in-law, who lived in Portland back then), we hastened over to Cannon Beach in Oregon. This included walking on the sunny beach, running into icy ocean water, splashing, getting wet, walking through the small seaside town of Cannon Beach, stopping at an ice-cream shop, and marvelously enjoying ourselves. What a day!
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The next day on the way back to Seattle from Portland we took a tour of Mt. St. Helens. On the way we stopped at several tourist centers and mountainside overlooks. Here is a statue of an elk, because elk are awesome. We glimpsed them from afar as they moved around in the huge barren valley of Mt. St. Helens’ destruction. Texas doesn’t have elk. We have deer. But no elk. 😦 I want an elk
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The valley by Mt. St. Helens, still affected by the blast in the 80’s. Wow. But it is so beautiful!
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On the way to the Mt. St. Helens main tourist center we stopped inside a mountain-lodge restaurant, where we enjoyed huge sandwiches and soda, and warmth. There is Megan, and my sister Abby, and my mom!
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More mountain pictures!

Heaven Sight

20130925_225058 (1)Work in progress novel Heaven Sight has been sort of on my mind.

Anton Reinhard grew up when the fever pitch of war angst rose high. In 1917, as a small child, he faced the brutal death of his father, in an anti-German riot on the streets of New York. He grew up learning to look after himself, but under the protecting wing of a compassionate priest. As he grows older he develops strongly as an artist, seeking and loving beauty and meaning, but finding only disillusionment in the world around him. As his intent search for Heaven’s sight continues, with the furor of the second World War broiling at a distance, Anton catches frustrating glimpses of something divine in a world catching afire. 

I just came up with the synopsis off the top of my head. I also made a graphic in PS . . . with a quote from Dante’s Inferno.

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I started writing this story a year ago, and now I’ve finally come back around to it. I’ve been in a serious dry spell lately, which is tragic. I will sometimes reflect on the days when I just wrote and didn’t double check every sentence and let the mind flow out onto the page (computer or otherwise). And now . . . maybe it’s just when you get older you get more self-conscious, that’s just me, but it continues, drawing out and reducing me to spinning helplessness and wonder. Where have the words gone, I sometimes ask. Why can’t it be as easy? Why can’t I just churn out the stories a hundred miles per hour and drive on fearlessly?

Honestly, I really don’t know, but I have to tell myself that I’m definitely more of a brooding author type, who takes a while to get things down when the mind is filled with life. Life happens. So, let come what may. I’ve begun to learn that through sunshine and shadow I must write, I must draw, I must devour the thoughts and words and creations of other great artists, because that is the only way to escape the mire.

Part II of this post will feature the snippets I have so far . . .

Gain the World but Lose my Soul?

I have realized that too often lately I turn the radio to a major hit station like i93 or iheart radio, or on Spotify my first choice is to listen to songs that please me in the now. Artists such as Lana Del Ray, Sam Smith, Maroon 5, Ed Sheeran, and numbers of others, all fill my head with their catchy beats and well-written lyrics that capture a mood, emotion, or sentiment. The artist in me responds to the soul in these songs which makes it to the top charts. I have begun to tend towards the view that “Christian” music, movies, and fiction is inferior to the success, glamor, and power of pop culture media. What I am missing is the promise that dwells at the very core of what I label as Christian–the potential striving of a musician, an artist, a writer, who strives to bring light to the world. My generalization, haughty and rather patronizing of the church, I must admit, is one of the most damaging mindsets existent today. Even as I strive to seek the Lord, I am pulled towards the world and its wondrous beauty, its profound talent. Why?

I could give you the cliche, basic answer that Christians who have grown up in the church could give you: “the world wants to pull us in”. And as cliche as that sounds, it’s true. Yeah, you reading this might just chuckle and roll your eyes because I am trying to sound like such a philosopher, mechanically repeating an exhausted caveat of the Church. I am saying it because it is true for those who wish to seek God. DC talk defines the walk with Christ as “the narrow path which you [Christ] have carved”. Why do Christians strive to reach out via music, film, and fiction, making their own genre (Christian film, music, and especially the Amish-dominated Christian fiction)? Because we are called. Why would we want to just sit back and stay safe within the walls of our churches? Why would we want to be merely content with a musical follower of Christ who sings his original songs on the church stage, instead of using a recording studio and extensive radio network to expose his God-inspired songs?

Why would we want to simply blog and pass around books written by a literary Christian? Why not go ahead and strive to publish at a major publishing house?

When I ignore or scoff at Christian media I am in a sense turning to the world as my source of entertainment, fulfillment, and sensory thrills. I am essentially stepping away a wonderful passion and potential that rests in artists who want to honor God with their talents. Why should I have to settle for the talent of pop culture royalty? Sure, they sound good. They look good. They make good stuff. But that shouldn’t be a reason to settle for them, and let them dominate America. Because even that which creates the most delightful feelings in us does not automatically make the catchy song of “La La La” or “Stay the Night” right.

What I’m trying to say is, the Church, the Bride of Christ, has a mission. So often I have almost subconsciously decided that this mission is either unsuccessful, unimpressive, or simply unattractive. That is not to say that I see a complete lacking in Christian Media. I greatly admire the music of TobyMac, DC Talk, Newsboys, Natalie Grant, Steven Curtis Chapman, and many others. But sometimes, I just want to listen to i93, let my adrenaline get pumping to a catchy song. And this isn’t wrong, but I question my priorities. If I really mean what I say about the Church reaching out to the world, daring to stand up to the giant of Pop Culture, Ivy League scholars, and the Left Wing, we definitely have something–I mean someONE–going for us. God blessed Hollywood actors with their ability to capture emotion, perform on the silver screens. He gave singers such as Demi Lovato and Ed Sheeran their beautiful voices. HE is in control. So why can’t we look to Him (why can’t I look to him??) and realize that He is behind who we are and what we do. In fact, what we do comes from who we are. And when we are in Him, what we do can be better than anything imagined. It can change hearts. It can give hope. It can stir the embers of the truest love–that love which Christ had for us, when He hung on the cross.

I will probably follow this up later on, but for now . . . here you are. dff4cbac1a1c1ff3638f29eead9d9b7e